Friday

Jackson got some sleep last night.   Drank some juice and a few bites of bacon this morning.  He's worn out.

Jackson still looks pale this morning, ...  he's had a busy schedule already.  Before I arrived at 6:30am, he had already had his chest tube out and gotten blood drawn.   I was a mess while I was driving here this morning because I realized I was not going to be there when they took it out.   Maybe it was for the better (for me) but I still wished I was here to comfort him.   When I asked Colin how bad it was, he just answers, "It's over."   They also took out the little leads to his heart.   And once he had finished that, they had to stick him for blood work.    Poor guy.  He just had a million lines in him, wish they could have kept one in so they didn't have to stick him again.    The morphine is making him drowsy and itchy.   Keeps rubbing his face but he doesn't seem to be that bothered by it.   (It's driving me crazy).

I am so thankful.   I cannot put into words the relief I feel in my heart.   How grateful I am to God, that His plan was Jackson to go through this surgery and return home with us.   I can't pretend that I won't still be aggravated and frustrated on a daily basis with three young kids (soon to be four), but I do know that this changes you.   I knew before what a gift each one of our children are.   But, I don't think that it will be as easy to forget that now when they are fighting over toys, not listening when I tell them it's time to get ready ...
This has changed all of us.  I am praying that Colin and I are open to what God has in store for us next.   I'm hoping we get a little break in there before any other BIG thing, but I am praying that we can hear His call.   I am praying that we find a way to take this experience and do something really great with it -

So, as far as the rest of the day ... we're taking it easy in our little room (which is slightly less claustrophobic and stuffy as it was before I got some sleep).    Waiting on an EEG, visits from the surgeon as well as the cardiologist.   Hopefully as this morphine wears off, we are going to taper to a tylenol with codeine and see how he does.   He needs to get moving around today, walking around without getting so weak and green.
We should know if he will need a blood transfusion by the time the doctors come by.


For right now, he fell back asleep.  Here's hoping that they don't come for an hour or more.   I know some more sleep will help him.